Apologies and Information

Whoo… I can’t believe I haven’t posted since September 😦 I am SO sorry…

Of course, a lot has been going on and getting on here to post hasn’t been the first thing on my mind. Obviously.

A short run-through of events? Sure!

Got hired at a clothing store in July? Check.

Attended AMAZING Alice Cooper/Motley Crue concert with my parents and Jarrett in October? Check!

Started working as a substitute teacher in our area in November, so I left the job at the clothing store? Check!

Had several doctor appointments and our 4D ultrasound? Check!

Started planning my baby shower (because I have control issues and want to make sure everything is done the way I think it it should be done)? Check!

Began planning my vacation to Branson, Missouri with my parents for the few days before Christmas? Check!

Work, work, work? Save money, save money, save money? Check!

I really have been up to quite a few things over the past couple of months. Finding and getting settled into a decent job that will actually keep bills paid, etc. has been more difficult than it should have been. I have an awesome work history and all of that, but most people in my area can’t afford to pay me what I should be being paid. That’s pretty stinkin’ lame. Therefore, I moved into an all new field of job. Hopefully this will prove fruitful. I’m not a fan of 100% relying on Jarrett.

As of tomorrow, my baby shower is one month away and we will have a whole crap ton of stuff to do. Technically, my mom, Jarrett’s mom, and my mom’s best friend are “throwing the shower for me”, but that doesn’t really seem to be how it’s going. Like I said above, I have control issues, so I want to make sure it all goes the way I want it to, haha.

I know this didn’t really say too much of… Well, anything, but I do have to end this here. I need to be getting to bed since I have to wake up at 6 AM to be at school at 7:30 AM. Another long day of children with bad attitudes 😛 I am working at my mom’s school though, so I’ll get to spend my lunch break and “prep period” with her. That’s always a nice perk.

I hope everyone has had a great autumn so far! I’ll leave my favorite of Bodhi’s 4D ultrasound pictures at the bottom so everyone can see it 🙂

Kylee

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Excitement is Building!

It’s Saturday night.

On Thursday morning, we had our awesome, big ultrasound and got to see a lot more amazing pictures of our wee one. They also saw the gender! However, we’re having a really fun “gender reveal” party Tuesday evening, so no one knows. No one at all 😀

We. Are. So. Excited.

As it gets closer, I don’t know why in the world we decided to wait. It’s starting to get ridiculous, haha.

Since I can’t really tell you too much about that at this very moment, I’ll just show you the newest ultrasound. We did get one that actually showed Wee One’s face, but we’re keeping it for ourselves. Our parents have the picture on their phones and such, but we didn’t share it on Facebook or any of that junk, so I guess I won’t post it here either.

Here you go!

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Also! I started my new job a little while ago.

As I believe I said on one post, it’s a very small part time job at a clothing store. It’s not much at all, but its something. Jarrett and I are thinking that I should find another small part time job like this one until the baby comes. He doesn’t want me to work WAY too much while I’m pregnant. He’s working towards getting a job at the nuclear plant in our area, which would (of course) pay TONS more than he’s making now and offer amazing insurance. Once the baby is born, I’ll replace one of the part time jobs with a bigger job, or (if he gets hired at the nuclear plant) I’ll quit one of the part time jobs and only work a little until the baby is about six months old or so. Jarrett is comfortable with that option as well. I SERIOUSLY hope things can work out in that manner…

Anyway, I am so tired I could literally pass out, sooo… I think I’ll do that. Sundays are my only guaranteed day off and I plan on being incredibly lazy tomorrow.

Kylee

Impatience and ADD

You know, when I was younger, I was known for being impatient and for having the shortest fuse on the planet. As I got older, I decided that I should probably change those things. It definitely wasn’t the best way to be viewed as a “good person”, or whatever.

Now, I do believe I have morphed into what some might call a “very nice Southern lady”. To some, that may not seem like a huge compliment, but for someone who’s Arkansas bred, born and raised, that’s a pretty great one.

Lately, I feel myself reverting back to “the old ways” and needless to say, I’m not very excited about that aspect. I had sort of hoped that all of those not-so-great things that every movie and TV show says happen when you’re pregnant didn’t actually happen. Seems like they do and in full force. BAH. I’m tired of it.

I feel so terrible for Jarrett. I really do think I’m constantly mean to him. Of course, he says I’m not, but this is the perfect time to give out a little white lie to make me feel better, hm?

I’ve been filling out paperwork for this new stinkin’ job, which I get one form at a time over email. It takes FOREVER and I’m SO tired of doing it. I literally keep almost NOT doing it just because I find it so aggravating. The problem? Jarrett would be so disappointed in me if I messed it all up. They already told me I have the job AND they offered me for an hour than I thought they would. Mind you, it’s not as much as I’ve been making at my past couple of jobs, but it’s still decent. I’ll  make… Barely nothing, but this job is NOT meant to be my only job. Jarrett (and his mom) are worried about me overworking myself while I’m pregnant, but only working ten hours a week might as well not be working at all in my eyes.

Due to the fact that Jarrett and I don’t live together right now (I got sick, my dad worried himself nearly to death and asked me to move back “home”), our goal is obviously to be in our place before the kid comes. That’ll probably be at the end of January if what my doctor said at my last appointment is true (i.e. the whole “I think you’re 16 weeks along, not 14” thing). That doesn’t give us a whole lot of time since it’s nearly holiday season and I “owe” my parents a chunk of cash.

Blah, blah, blah.

Do you like my rant? It’s already bothering me AND my ADD is kicking me in the face.

Basically, I’m about to start a completely pointless job. For damn sure. They money is going to be basically pointless until I fill that “second job position”. I have an application filled out for my favorite local bar, but how would that work? Me being a pregnant waitress at a bar that has live bands each day of the weekend? Who knows?

My next post will probably be the “I started the new job and it’s as ridiculous as I thought it was going to be” post. The next one or two after that should be worth something though. I have another OB/GYN appointment on the first Thursday of September and they’re supposed to be checking for the gender of our wee one then. Jarrett and I decided to get the doctor to tell our moms the gender instead of us so we can have one of those super fun “gender reveal” parties the following Tuesday. I REALLY hope all of that goes as well as it could…

Whoo. There you all go. Have a great night 🙂

Kylee

Baby Bear’s First EVER Picture!

As I’m sure you can all gather, I haven’t posted much this past month because everything has been a bit hectic. With all of the sickness and the exhaustion, I haven’t really felt like typing some huge post about sleeping too much and eating a lot of very small meals so I don’t turn into Linda Blair from The Exorcist.

Anywho, over the past week or two, I’ve begun to feel a lot better, although I’m sore and tired most of the time. Today was the first time I went to actually see my OB/GYN. So far I’ve only been going to the local Health Department. It was a WONDERFUL doctor’s visit.

I was told they just wanted to go over everything, et cetera, but when Jarrett and I got there, they told us that they actually wanted to do our first ultrasound! Our first reaction was, “Oh, crap… Our moms aren’t here!” However, I quite enjoyed the idea that Jarrett and I got to see our “Little Bit” for the first time by ourselves. 🙂 It just seems so sweet that way.

Here’s the picture!

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I apologize for the size, but you can’t really see anything otherwise. It’s sort of a funny picture. Our Baby Bear was pretty much balancing on its head! The little wing-looking things at the top of the picture are its feet. It had its ankles crossed and its arms behind its head, like it was just… Chillin’ upside-down! Hahaha, leave it to our kiddo to be a tiny weirdo even in utero. (That was quite a few words ending in O…)

The doctor also said that it’s actually a little bigger than it should be for 14 weeks, so he’s thinking I might actually be 16 weeks along instead. At my next appointment, they’ll be able to tell me for sure and give me a much more accurate due date.

Whoo…

It’s been one crazy month, for sure. We’ve tried to refrain from buying much of anything until we find out the gender. So far, all we’ve got so far is an adorable, whale-shaped bathtub, a set of receiving blankets covered in foxes (<3!), and my mom bought our first onesie! It says “Guns N Roses, Sweet Child O’ Mine”, which has HUGE meaning for she and I. I’m in love!

On a more “about me” note, I’ve had two interviews for a very small part time job at a popular clothing store here in my hometown. It’ll end up being my “second job” since it’ll only be able 10 hours a week for the most part. I’m still in the hiring process of hiring at the “closer to full time” job. I’ll probably work 45 hours a week. Go me!

Thank you so much for reading all of this! I’ll try to start doing a better job of keeping the blog updated.

Kylee

Baking a Bun

 It has been EXACTLY a month since I’ve been here and I’m ashamed. I do have valid reasons for being absent though. A LOT has gone on, so much that I can’t remember every little thing that’s happened…

There is ONE thing that I’m absolutely sure that I won’t forget though 😀

I am very happy (and a little afraid) to announce that Jarrett and I are going to have a little bundle of (sure to be) adorable baby at the end of this coming winter, also known as the beginning of 2016.

It was incredibly unexpected, but that doesn’t mean that we aren’t VERY excited!

At this point, that’s really all I can say because we really don’t know a whole bunch else. According to when my last yadda yadda yadda, I’m about 10 weeks along. That means that until we’re told differently, I should be due about half way through February. Spiffy fun times!

There you go, my big news. I hope you enjoyed it! Keep reading if you’d like more updates, I guess.

Goodnight!

Kylee

Some of Us Are Looking at the Stars

So, I lied just a bit, I guess I do have a bit more to say today.

I’m sitting in my bed, watching the 1991 movie, “The Butcher’s Wife”, starring Jeff Daniels and a very blonde Demi Moore. The blonde really works for her, by the way.

Anyway, the movie starts with Demi Moore living on an island off the coast of the Carolinas, so somewhere off the southern part of the east coast.

Blah, blah, blah, none of that is important. The movie isn’t the point in the post, the point is that I decided to tell you all about a vision I have for myself.

As I mentioned in a previous post, I am rather afraid of the ocean. I don’t like the idea of not really know what’s ACTUALLY down there. I mean, not all of it has been completely discovered. I guess it’s mostly the whole “unknown” thing that scares me.

Regardless of that, I have always gotten this specific scene stuck in my head: A house on the beach, or on some kind of island, like where the witches live in the movie “Practical Magic” (Sandra Bullock, Nicole Kidman, and even Stockard Channing…). Somewhere that has an actual farmer’s market with locally grown produce, not stuff flown in from Mexico.

If I’m so afraid of the ocean, why in the world do I keep thinking I’m supposed to live right by the sea?

Maybe I’m supposed to write that into a book. Honestly, that might be exactly why it’s caught up in my brain.

Talking about moving to Tennessee with Jarrett after the whole Marine Corps thing sounds equally as wonderful, since Chattanooga has the farmer’s market on Sundays, places to hike and camp, bars/pubs (since we both quite enjoy the fire water), and BEAUTIFUL houses (not going to lie, I totally looked into the housing market there. Jarrett knows this, of course.) that really aren’t that expensive. Mind you, I haven’t been there yet, but he’s spent plenty of vacation time there since he was about fourteen. He’s swears up and down that I’ll love it, that I’ll never want to leave. We’re going there for a week in August and I’m stupidly excited.

I’m hoping that since the two major military bases in the country are in California and North Carolina, I’ll end up somewhere close to a beach and I can find out if all these ideas have any kind of merit. I’ve only ever been to the beach once (unless you count just stopping by on the way to Disney World when I was about six…) when I was sixteen. It was Orange Beach on the Florida/Alabama state line and it just seemed to be… Gray. Everything was gray and since I don’t eat seafood, I pretty much lived off of snack foods and grilled chicken salad, no matter what restaurant we went to. I’d like to have a better experience with a beach, like… My family’s timeshare includes Hawaii and Aruba, as well as many other very nice beaches. I’d very much so like to visit one of those, mostly Hawaii.

We’ll see what I can plan, when we’re not broke. I don’t intend on spending every single leave he ever gets in Arkansas, after all. I am DETERMINED to take real vacations, for us to spend time together, just the two of us, you know? I’m super family-oriented, but I’m also rather Jarrett-oriented, haha.

I figured that I’ve spouted off enough nonsense on this one. I hope this one was a bit more entertaining.

Here’s a quote from “The Butcher’s Wife” that I quite enjoyed.

“We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”

Kylee

Catch Up Time!

Holy cow, I do apologize.

So. Much. Stuff. Has. Been. Happening.

I’m not even going to try to tell you every little thing that’s happened. It would take the next two days. I don’t have the time for that, to be honest.

One thing that was important is going to Texas for three days in March. I finally got to visit my adorable niece and Jarrett got to meet my sister, brother-in-law, and my niece and nephew. It was a nice visit, but I LOATHE Texas…

I have been sick, like bed-ridden sick, for the past three days. Today is the fourth and I am exhausted. Over the past nine months or so I have been trying to get my anxiety and bipolar disorder under control and, of course, that means taking a hundred different kinds of pills, searching for one that will actually work.

As you might know, pills for those sort of things generally come with migraines as a side-effect. I was diagnosed with chronic migraines when I was five years old. Over the past six months, my migraines have grown incredibly worse. They’ve gone from one or two a month with added nausea, to one or two a week with temporary blindness, numbness in my hands and feet, and dizziness that makes it really difficult to walk.

Obviously, needless to say, that’s what I’ve been dealing with this week. Since I sit at a desk, take phone calls, and work on a computer, these migraines make it very hard to actually function at work. Luckily, I have this crazy leave in the system that lets me miss for my headaches without getting in trouble, but they’re still getting to the point of being ridiculous.

Having talked to a specialist, who explained that the medications that I’ve tried are more than likely what’s made the migraines worse, I’ve decided to look into alternate forms of “medication”, the most prevalent one being the use of an emotional support dog, a service dog trained to deal with an owner who has mental “disabilities” like PTSD, or, like me, an anxiety disorder.

Since Jarrett and I are buying a German Shepherd (at some point! My frickin time frame keeps getting pushed back.), which are commonly used as service dogs, we decided to train the one we get to be my emotional support dog. Jarrett always knew that our dog will be his buddy, but he’ll be my baby. All of my pets end up stuck to me like glue. I basically get addicted to them and them to me.

The breeder we’ve chosen, whom I’ve become pretty good friends with over the past couple of months, knows all about my health issues and it helping us choose the perfect pup to fit our needs. Not only will he be a service dog, but he’ll also have to hike and camp with us. We are very outdoorsy folks, after all. We’ve visited and played with puppies twice, once in April and once in May. I absolutely ADORE them.

Well, anyway, that’s what I’m going through personally at the moment. Now, Jarrett… He’s doing some other crazy stuff.

He has decided to join the Marine Corps.

This is not a rash, spur of the moment decision that he made. Jarrett was in ROTC in high school, ended up being the Battalion Commander by the end of it all, and he was also on the school’s shooting team. He can blindfold himself, take apart his AK-47, then put it back together in just a couple of minutes. The only reason he didn’t join right after he graduated was because he wants a family. He was so worried that he’d join, become a lifer, and never get a chance to have the family that he craves.

Of course, it’s incredibly frightening. I mean, the military is scary and Marines are pretty hardcore, so just about anything could happen. I’m looking on the bright side of everything, simply trying to think about the fact that it’s a fantastic way to get to travel.

Since it’ll be next spring before he signs papers, we’ll be together for over a year then. I hope that after the weeks and weeks and weeks of work he has to do before he finds out where he stationed that he gets stationed in California, at Fort Pendleton. I mean, Alaska, Hawaii, or Japan would be cool options too, they are less likely. Most of the Marines I know are stationed in California. (Although, a friend of mine’s little brother did just get sent to Japan for two years.) Neither of us are very big “beach bums” since we both have a pretty dumb fear of the ocean (don’t ask…), so Alaska would pretty awesome. Jarrett wants to hunt big animals like… Elk, or something and I like how beautiful the nature is there. The twenty-four-hour sunshine is pretty spiffy too. (The twenty-four-hour darkness is what would freak me out. I’m a bit afraid of the dark…) An old friend from high school just married an Army man and they live in Alaska now. She’s been posting GORGEOUS pictures on social media. I’m stupidly jealous, truthfully.

Now, the less pretty stuff is that I’ve moved out of my house. It IS mine, so it’s not going anywhere, but I hated living there and with the way my health is right now, I’ve barely been making my bills. My parents asked me to move back into their house, so I decided that it would probably be my best option. I am now living in the spare bedroom at my parent’s, enjoying mom-cooked meals and all the love from our family’s Cavalier King Charles spaniels and the Chihuahua who loves me more than anyone else ever. It’s nice to not have to pay utilities.

Blah, blah, blah. So there’s your brief glance into what has become my life. Things are nice and stressful, but at least I have fun things to look forward to in the future. Maybe marrying the most phenomenal man on the planet, getting to move somewhere that I’ve never even visited before, and getting a wonderful canine creature to spend all of my time with. I’ll end this here, for now, but I’ll be back when I have something worth talking about and as thanks for reading all of this, here’s a new picture of that handsome man and I. This is from my birthday, which was in April. We were on our way to visit German Shepherd puppies for the first time.

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Kylee